“Don’t look back in anger…don’t look back in anger I heard you say”
The photo I took the other day…the face of anticipation, the day of reckoning, the day I would find out if the team at the Walton Centre would agree to me decreasing and weaning off steroids.
I was full of excitment, slight anxiety, and just general wonderment.
So why this song? Why “don’t look back in anger”? Music lyrics often express what we can’t say. I have been angry about my health and health situation, yes I am generally positive but the last 7 months I have experienced plenty of ups and downs.
Don’t look back in anger, it feels like the end to an awful storm. A blip in a short period of time. The mental fog has cleared, I feel happy.
I feel like me.
“You look really well!” S said. “Ahh thank you” I replied gushing.
S and T 2 of the lovely NMO nurses, it was so good too see them. For them to see the difference in me since the NMO UK patients day in April. To just see 2 medical professionals who understand.
The news was good.
Another 6 weeks on azathioprine then to start a steady taper to decrease steroids, and go from there at a certain dose.
So cheers to you NMO.
I am no longer looking back in anger, the calm has come. My mind is no longer racing of what could have been. I hace taken stock that I feel better now than I did this time last year.
C and J have been amazing as usual. Their supoort is amazing.
My family also, my friends, my work mates, my facebook friends, those with NMO.
I also want to thank myself for not giving up. For not giving in.
It’s all going to be ok, don’t look back in anger.
I have let go, finally.
Time to continuing enjoying life.