Come alive…come alive…

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So that was it.

I was back at work and it fet like no time had passed. It was like I had just been off on holiday for a week.

I was feeling quite anxious before I went back, although I no need to be.

So work so far is all good.

Things were changing in my personal life too, or not things..me.

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This sought of….fog…cleared…or  I should say has recently cleared.

It’s like…that was then and this is now…I am back feeling like I was before I got ill. Not physically…but getting there…but mentally…yes.

I just feel…at peace with myself.

New meds seem to be suiting! hurrah! Something else also happened….

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I love this outfit, I love my bridesmaid sash, I like my extensions, I had a super day and most importantly my best friend did.

But…that face…the smile is genuine…but for me I felt like I was staring back at 2015 moon face.

I faced the scales and that also echoed what I was feeling.

No more. Not again.

Fast forward 4 weeks and….

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1 stone 2 1bs down and counting and I am so happy.

Sometimes the battle is with pain, sometimes with medication, sometimes mentally.

Sometimes the battle is with ourselves. How we feel, how we see ourselves.

I never ever want to see those numbers on scales again.

I don’t ever want to feel like that again that all I could see was steroids.

So.

Here’s to health, happiness, not hiding and being yourself.

I feel like I have come alive, that the future is exciting and I don’t have to be that size any more.

That life is back to normal and so far 2019 you’re shaping up to be quite good!

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Do what makes you happy, be kind to yourself and never give up.

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