Self identity….an entity in itself…

Hellooo

 

Time to empty my head.

Self identity….self identity…idenity in one’s self…

Weight gain, hair changes, weight loss, weight gain…clothes…

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Why does it matter?

Do you see YOU in the mirror? For a long time I saw a label and a bunch of tablets all tied together with a blue badge.

When I was on steroids I longed to be the person in the photo 1 month before my T.M attack. Pre steroids.

Now I am older…my T.M attack was 2014…gosh…almost 4 years ago…August 2014….so next month and STILL I feel weird at this time of year. 5 years since I lost and regained my sight, since that awful bout of depression.

Now, I am free.

I speak to lots of people at work from all back grounds, we are all fightimg a battle, from health to life changes, a lady told me recently she was”free” and I could have cried.

Perhaps I don’t need to hide behind certain things….I am happy with who I am, I am me.

Bleach blonde hair…pink…is that me?? Or is brown me? I am more natural with dark hair and that’s ok…

But that is one of the barriers….

Letting go of things can be hard as can let barriers or a guard down.

 

Still to this day 4 years on I do not like to talk in person about my health in depth. Why?

Perhaps the answers lie within my writing.

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